contact lens, city harvest church, jori and the swimming pool.

Rushed around like crazy today, and this shows how suck my time management is. Went for a dip in the kallang swimming complex with mr jori to relax after the massive amounts of weights we've been doing and to relieve the stress on my lower back from k4 the day before. Then when i turned on my phone i realised i totally forgot that i was supposed to visit city harvest church brendan invited me to. So...chiong there and was slightly late.

Never have i seen so many people in a church. So many enthu people in fact. They do everything with such spirit. Couldn't stay long to listen to his group debrief but i wish i had the time to. had to chiong to ps to try out the contact lens. Late again and i kinda pissed the lady helping me because when she tried to put the lens in i just cant keep my eyes still. Took about 30 minutes? Frustrating. Then i had to learn how to do it. There's only one way to describe how i felt getting the stupid lens in and out of my freaking eye. %$#@@!!!!

Got so frustrated. I hope i dun damage my eye's more than it already is. The sense of sight is so precious. Those without specs PLEASE look after your eyes!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or you'll regret forever like me.

I think this will probably be my last post for the year. So Happy new year to all and may all your wishes be granted.

:)

3 days left of 2006

Time flies so fast, in moments it's gone. The long bus rides home from mac to kallang give me more than enough time to reflect on the year that's gonna end in 3 days. I've to say this is the year i actually bothered to go out there and meet some people. A year i've grown up quite abit. Emotionally, mentally, maybe even spiritually to some small extent.

The year didn't start so well, school was utter rubbish for awhile, considered leaving ACS and the IB for A level track which is a more tested route of education, but didn't. Foot surgery over the Chinese New Year, Miserable higher chinese results. Not doing to well in the exams. Missed the ACC squad by a second in december. Canoeing kinda lightened my days most of that time. After some bad days in school it's just nice to let out the frustration and fatigue to the water. But on the flip side sometimes it pissed me off even more when the stroking was not going to well too. Barely survived my mid year exam which was during the A div canoeing champs. Had to sit it out had no choice.

But gradually things started to take some shape. Finals was not great but good for the time being. Canoeing went pretty smooth this year. Got to know some great people. I'm developing as a person :]

Next year is gonna be the biggest year of my life. Diploma exams, so many international competitions available to try to get selected for and i'm gonna be part of the first batch of people taking and hopfully getting the IB diploma from a local school in singapore. Seems small but the repercussions are going to be really big. It will decide which Uni i'll go to,what courses to take, whether i can sneak my way pass NS and at least attempt to get something big in sports.

Hurdles however are big. Competitions are so close to the exams. Either i self destruct and totally screw my life or I'm gonna fly. Do or die basically. Tons of work required. I pray for the strength to survive through the next year and of course my special wish which is so damn impossible but i hope it's granted anyway.

Hope the motivation i'm feeling right now can last the next 12mnths.
I heard this line from some movie i watched on tv:

"Wake up everyday with a purpose in your life"

how true.

Andy Mckee - Drifting - www.candyrat.com

Godly...
btw what did u get for christmas? I got a bottle :]

Merry christmas :]

Merry christmas people :]

christmas eve :]

Heys! Merry christmas eve people!!! :]

Just a few hours away from christmas, how i wish it would snow. It's pretty cool right now with the rain and all but nothing compares to the real temperate conditions. That's why if its possible I'll leave here to study somewhere else and see the big wonderful world. Probably uni I'll do that. Not gonna make myself regret for bad decisions anymore. For now study hard!!!!!!

The junior guys of 2005-06 came over to spend the night yesterday. Great company had lots of fun and entertainment. Especially jori playing racing games and dancing at the same time hahaha. Dance until cannot I can't drive the car straight haha.

Tmr there's still training. Ahhhhhh! I wanna kill myself now. I never ever train on christmas!!!Gah, scree...

meh.

Wish

Just this once,
Just one chance.
This wish of mine,
won't God grant it this one time?

But it might not happen
My soul...saddened?
This wish might never see the light of day,
Locked up and hidden far away.

People always dream of things out of reach,
I'm no different despite what others preach.
These dreams so perfect, beautiful, pure,
In none of them, a presence of a flaw.

This wish of mine,
Suppressed for some time.
Impossible it might be,
I just pray so hard God will give it to me.

-
Zeke

Fate and life

Today i finally got the answer to a question i had been thinking about for a real long time. Answers however have the tendency to bring up more questions and it's a never ending cycle. Well, that's life...and at least now i know and some things are starting to make more sense to me.

It may be rude to ask but if u could just grant this one small request for me, I will believe without a doubt that u are there.

my dear God.

Coffee cake

First attempt at coffee cake. Not too bad la just the top abit(alot) burnt. The oven's fault lah

:D

christmas also almost here. Parents and sis gone hong kong without me. Gonna be a very interesting christmas indeed. Too many stuffs to do. And i'm getting very unfocused from my paddling recently...too many thoughts and stuff.

Need to refocus my mind concentrate and be the cruise missle and not a bomb like xue yi was describing. Focused energy and not uncontrolled energy. One with purpose and accuracy.

back to my cake mmmmhmm tastes relatively ok.


or my standards damn low......

Flooding of macritchie res.

The heavens have been crying for the past 27hrs or so with little short breaks to replenish tears and macritchie is currently bursting. The dam is now singapore's first waterfall lookalike, we have chances to walk on water along the boardwalk, launching point is way way way under water... the carparks are flooded with quite a number of carrs getting massively screwed because of engine leak. The small field beside the toilet is now a swamp and the roads are now being closed due to excessive water on the streets. The plant nusery also flooded pretty bad...wonder what bukit timah if bukit timah is flooded too.

Very interesting...i like the weather actually. Nice calming rain falling and smashing against the ground. The sort of gloomy skies, the making of a nice cool relaxing day/night. Paddling in the rain is also one of my more enjoyed activities actually. Feels good.



People may get delayed and stuff but i personally think we should enjoy this endless rain. Now we can afford to take a back seat for once in this crazy hectic life and just sit back and listen to the rain falling and if we are indeed late just blame the weather for the delays.

Pics courtesy or yun loong....more to come some other day :]

:)

Dad's birthday yesterday. Nice cake and pizza! Enjoyed the pizza alot :) and the cake mmm. Well, he's flown off to china to work again...

My hands are all blistered right now. Can't grip anything hard with my right hand at the current moment, it hurts too much. Coach made me try another paddle with a tennis grip on it and its killer. The blade size and holding is fine with me...it's just the grip. He's offered to alter my paddle for me and i'll just let him anyway. I think he's experienced enough to know what's best.

Tmr is the first real rest day in 2 weeks. Haven't had real good rest in ages. finally can just wake up late and slack abit. Oh yeah...lucas made his 4th animation video! Go check it out at rowfastly.blogspot.com

:)

Got my pics finally! Taken with water proof cam!!! interesting...

see! it's in the water!

ok that's it.

interesting day today is are was.

Today is are was interesting in many ways...oh yes oh yes...mmmhhmmm. Morning was normal training as usual till the weights session came along and i had to arrange the massive group of us into groups to squeeze into the 10 exercises. Perfect order in chaos is the best way to describe it. reminds me of the AC training which i havent attended for wat seems like forever now. People running around rushing to their stations in 10 secs before the set starts...some doing weights..some resting....stopwatch beeping every 30 seconds...chaotic order. Junior men are working hard and i hope this can last. Working in groups will enable mass and rapid improvement. Com'on guys...we are strong and even if we aren't, soon we will be! just wait!

That was the morning. Then went for a short afternoon session which required 30+ minutes. But somehow assumptions are made here and there and well, things go wrong. ended up coach,bill,andrea,shaun and me got locked out of the paddle lodge.Went round borrowing a phone trying to make calls to whatever numbers we could conjure up...i conjured two wrong numbers....hahahha Ooooooopps. After several tries we got clarence in malaysia and finally someone was contacted and by 8 we were packing up (V.late).

Listened to bill and coach debate issues...etcetc...quite eye opening. Made me think abt what i want from canoeing which i already know...but still think anyway. But after all that debating only one thing matters to me which is to "succeed despite". Despite the conditions, despite the people, despite the challenge etc etc etc. This together with self belief,hard work...and pure passion will be enough to bring you to the top, the highest peak and the edge of human physical abilities. At least thats what i believe and i believe it with all my heart. That's all i need.

repainting room

Went to watch Tang quartet at vhc with cousin. I liked the encore and the last song best. The UFO themes on strings is whacky yet cool! So was the russian dude singing his warcar on tape. I realised the russian songs all quite sad. Maybe it's because there its just cold and gloomy all the time and people tend to be affected by weather. Whenever they play those sad themes i jst keep picturing this small wood house in the middle of nowhere. It's gloomy and snowing heavily. Pretty good concert i must say. Now i gotta go paint my room. It looks quite horrid now+ new blinds coming soon to cover the windows.

Think i'm getting tennis elbow.....BUT I'M IN CANOEING! It shouldn't happen...wrong sport!!!!!!

XS

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Who says sports cant be graceful! Grace is sport. grace is perfection.

Com is fnally up and running

Com was down the past few days and i've been spending most of my time getting it to work again. Came in third for the junior men's 2 km timetrial on sunday. Did all the preparation as though it was a real race and all i can say is that what i did was my best. 9.07 was the time which is way off my original target. The mind is willing but the body is weak. But i'm grateful i got something anyway. It could be worse.

Also i finally got my physics extended essay going. I'm changing my topic to paper planes after i saw this paper airplane thing on tv. Now i just got to go confirm the changes with T.chiew and i'm off to work with vigourous testing to break the world record for longest flight of a paper airplane. It's definitely going to be more fun than reflecting light off surfaces.

you gotta be.

Listen as your day unfolds,
challenge what your future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted,
don't be shamed to cry
You gotta be..

You gotta be bad,
you gotta be bold,
you gotta be wiser
You gotta hard,
you gotta be tough,
you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool,
you gotta be calm,
you gotta stay together.
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day

Herald what your mother said
Read the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzlein your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
My oh my, you gotta be..

Time asks no questions,
it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning,
can't stop it if you tried to
The best part is danger staring you in the face

Got to be bad.
Got to be bold
Got to be wise.
Don't ever be cold
Got to be hard.
Not too, too hard
All I know is,
love will save the day
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Tmr is the 2km timtrial. Starting 5th if i'm right. I feel more prepared this time round and hopefully i can clock a good timing. First race in my new boat. Gonna try my best to start off with a bang.

The best is yet to be.

%$#@!.

Shit. go training for wat...go there and get my money thrown out the freaking window. one hole not bad enough now got freaking 2 holes..$#@!

sorry. alot of negative energy surrounding me right now...

I didnt tell wei li and company just now when my boat kenna whack but this afternoon i dreamt this EXACT thing happening...


intuition? its damn sad... i'm damn sad...
ignore this sht.

i'm just starting to like the boat somemore...after a rough start with it...

sigh.
____________________________________________________________________

TAo li...you are pro....310k and counting.
Apart from that i feel kinda sad for the korean rider who died. Freak accident. I pray for your family,team.



"Cherish life. Cherish everything around you."

Hokkien man trying to take a photo

hahaha

ACS - ACJC friendly.

Training programme had some changes this week so i had some time to just go down to mac and slack around and try out dad's camera on sat. Lens ain't that good but as long as can take photos can ready. The close ups are slightly better so i'll up them. All my utter random sh!t.

Shengyu & Nic

Double D s (looks like some men's mag pose)

Ming Sheng

AC JC J2

damn...can't remember his name

coach & the smart dog

C2

jimmy & feng resting

Band concert & children's aid society.

Busy day yesterday and today. Had ROD with this year's sec4s after a lousy training. Then rushed to go to school for acsi + acjc band concert. ACS I band still has along way to go as compared to ACJC's. I guess it comes with experience and time. 10 years or so is necessary to become pro at anything. I particularly liked the combined band songs. The 150 musicians on stage is just impressive and the many instruments are shiny shiny :) The sound was also very impressive + they were playing jurassic park themes and pirates themes which i like alot.
The giving out of awards thing was kind of out of place though. It's just weird and i hope they don't do it ever again. Overall it was a great concert. Nice job!

Today was decorating of Children's aid. I would say this is the nicest decorations we put up. Maybe it's because we know what to do after doing the other 2 homes. The atmosphere is also more homely compared to the other homes which will affect the way things look also.

Trainings have been pretty crap recently. 1000m sets are freaking slow now. Today scolded for rowing to slow and can't hit the timings. 2km timetrial around the bend. No idea what is wrong now. Maybe i'm packing my schedule too much and not resting enough. Or it could be not eating enough. Or i just suck.
Damn i hate this.

stress is bad.