zeke

Sunday, August 12, 2018

Report card 1

Hi,

The past 3 weeks have been really scary for me. Every night when I opened my trading account I was unsure if I could come out with a green day. Thankfully, I am glad to report 3 consecutive green weeks. It's also great that its earnings season and the pick up in volatility has really helped with my trading. I think that finding the trade net YouTube channel really helped me out as their live streaming really helps me learn the profession in real time and I feel like I have learnt so much just listening the the analysts discuss their possible actions. 

Now I'm trying to continue to learn and even went to get meir's book from the library to have a good read through and to fill in gaps that are missing from the live streams. I'm really grateful to learn from these guys and hope that I can continue to improve my skills. 

I've set my targets for the week and I will try my best to stick to my rules of engaging a trade. I also started to record all of my trades so that once I have a large enough sample size, I will be able to data mine and find the best areas to focus on. Little by little, I hope to grow this account into a sizable one and maybe one day be able to really pay myself out with a withdrawal.

Hope things continue to go well in the following weeks. The path is winding and uncharted, but I hope to have the courage and determination to continue to carry on. 

I never gave up in kayaking, I won't give up at this either.

Sunday, July 22, 2018

Weddings, Trading, Kayaking

Hi,

Been a busy month. Been watching live trading every night to see how the seasoned pros do it in real time. I made $55 on ON but lost $253 on TWTR so currently im down $200. Haven't been trading btc as much as i have been trying to learn the stock market abit more and it took alot of my attention.

I am also looking for a better broker as the commissions for local brokers is eating away my profits and even though i made good calls on NFLX and ARNC, i could not exit with profit even after a 5-7% move to the upside.

Trading is really hard, the emotions of my first lost was quite a hit i admit and it took me a day to get over it. But i will keep trying to succeed and hopefully one day i can say that i have cracked it! Still, i am abit worried some nights when i lie down in bed and think about it. If i cant succeed, i will have to find a job and work off the losses. But i think i will keep trying at least till december and hopefully i can be profitable by then.

Been to Dang's wedding and MX's wedding the past 2 weeks. it was good to see them happily with their partners. How time flies. It doesnt seem too long ago that one was my secondary 1 classmate with a math score of 103/100 and the other my teammate in the k4 1000m training for my first SEA Games where we got our first medals and validation as athletes. Now they are both moving to the next stage in life. Yet, i feel like i am exactly the same person i was from 2002, 2011.

I think i dont change much. I still like the same things, I still have the same routines. I am still in the kayak everyday. I feel different from everyone else. How do they change so much? how do they move to new things so easily. I am not sure how its possible and i cant wrap my mind around it.

Maybe i just am not good with change. And i resist it alittle.

I should try to make the first steps again more often. There will be good things infront of me too.

Sunday, July 01, 2018

Job hunting, trading and back to training

Hi,

It's been afew weeks since my last update and in this time quite afew things have happened. I sent out afew job applications, mainly to startups as I prefer less bureaucratic environments and they were mainly in the field of financial technology which I thought was interesting. My first few applications have not given me any replies and I guess I won't be hearing back from them. The last said I had a strong application however they found someone else who was better suited probably due to the fact that I didn't have much industry experience. Well, I'll keep looking around and I might apply if the location and job seems interesting. This job hunt was more thorough than last year. Previously I really had no idea what I wanted to do and would have just jumped into any job even if I didn't like it. Now having had some experience working, I have a better idea of the environment I want and what I am interested in and what I am not.

Maybe that's why it's harder to find another job now. In the meantime, while awaiting replies from companies, I started to seriously learn trading and technical analysis. I find that there are many YouTube channels such as Tone Vays, The Chart guys and Philakone really useful in getting newbies like me into trading. These guys really know their stuff and I'm not surprised they are doing well. 
I started trading the Bitcoin I bought much more seriously now and at first I wasn't making much and was often stuck in bad trading positions. But after afew months of reading and watching these guys, I'm starting to make more progress and have begun to accumulate and grow my crypto accounts slowly but surely. Now the only thing that worries me if that the exchange gets hacked or that it will take a long time for prices to recover for me to cash out and realize my profits. 

Also I started moving into quities and etfs as this would allow me to realize profits in dollars instead of in Bitcoin(so that I can use it for daily life). Hopefully I can continue to improve with more time as I quite enjoy trading and reading about markets which was the reason I liked economics so much.Still, I will continue to keep a look out for any good jobs out there as it would be nice to also meet new people and not just be coped up in front of my computer and charts all day. 

I also signed up for my final coaching course certification. I would like to get it done and be fully recognized as a qualified kayak coach in the case that I would like to coach in the future. I haven't decided yet, but since I am not competing this year in the asian games, it gives me more time to do other things.

Also I got back into proper training., I feel technically better and have been working to improve my base speeds. However my fitness needs a lot of work now as I haven't been pushing myself very hard training alone most of the time. I did have Daniel and the juniors for awhile which was great and it reminded me of the early years between 2007 and 2011. Those were great times to paddle when there were a lot of motivated people around who were also fun to hang out with. It seems like everyone is moving on to other things but I still like kayaking too much to stop doing it on a daily basis.

Hopefully I will be able to find my ikigai as well. If you don't know what it is, look it up on google!

Till the next update.

Sunday, June 03, 2018

A fresh start

Had 2 weeks of just sitting around and recovering from the selections.

Finally I'm starting to feel like i should get up and about and do something productive again. Applied for 2 jobs. One is as an economic writer for a consultation company and the second is as an analyst for a financial tech company that specialises in digital wallets.

I've had interest in these two kind of jobs for awhile now and i think its time i get to applying for them. Seems like there are alot of others who also want the job but that's life, you have to fight for what you want.

Also got back into training, the daily routines of 2 times daily sessions. Slowly i'm getting the feelings back and will being to push harder and harder to get the improvements i want for my paddling.

Other than this, im also considering finishing up my coaching certifications and also to maybe start coaching some younger kids. But we'll see where that goes. I dont want to overload too much on things to do and just enjoy the time i have now.

Also, im getting much much better at technical analysis. Maybe if i am consistent enough, one day i will never need to work again!

Anyway, here's a video from training camp in szeged. My technique is so much nicer now.

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

End of asian games selections

Hi,

Just wanted to write about the past month's training camp in szeged. The trainings were pretty good and I could feel myself getting stronger and faster with each week that went by. I got more confident with the weather and conditions too and I felt good. On the third week I came down with stomach issues that persisted for 4 days and when I returned to training I felt abit weaker and didn't have good appetite. Also had a fall during soccer training and my ankle was abit hurt. Still I tried my best for the selections and was doing well till the last 250m. Felt a sudden loss of power and confidence at that point and started falling back very suddenly. In the end I ended in fourth and didn't make it for the k2 1000m at asian games. 

I was pretty disappointed but I tried to keep myself in the zone to prepare for the 500 that could still be good. I felt I controlled my emotions much better this year than last year and went into the race giving myself a chance at doing well. I started well again but at the last 200 lucas pulled ahead again as I lost speed through the finish. That is where I have to focus on in the future. Still, I felt it was a decent set in 1.47.8. It was far from the best two guys but I feel I can do alittle better still.

Just returned to singapore now and am on a short break from paddling so that I can recharge myself. Will be back and pushing for faster times in the future! I am proud of where I've come to since the last asian games.

Hope things will work out In time. Till then,

Zeke 


Saturday, April 14, 2018

Late night thoughts

Just finished watching egao no hosoku. The story strikes me as something I've been feeling in the past year. Many of the challenges faced by yumi the female lead played by Yuko Takeuchi seemed to have been things I've been feeling. 

One of these would be the uncertainty of part time work. Nearing the end of the series, the question of 'what's next?' Kept popping up. That was something I kept asking myself as well as something that my colleagues kept asking me about. And like her, I didn't really have a good answer for it. 
Another thing I related to was about how she kept trying to find something to do that was meaningful even if it didn't pay well. I was looking for work that also kind of put me in the same circumstances and it almost felt like déjà vu.

The male lead also struggled with motivation as a comic artist and it was also similar to how I felt about kayaking for a period in 2017 after a series of unsuccessful years. He gradually managed to find renewed vigor in his work and did eventually put out his best comics with the help of yumi. 

I really enjoyed the series and it reminded me of how important it is to keep doing my best and having a positive Attitude in the things I do. I feel somewhat reinvigorated watching this and I hope I can continue to give my best in what I love and do- be it kayaking of work. Finally, I really liked the message of loving how the present situation is, almost longing for it to remain the same forever- yet in order for us to continue to grow and improve, we mustn't be afraid of change. 

The next few months will be another crossroad for me. Regardless of the result, I will have to continue to change as I have from the year before. I am afraid that I will stagnant or even worse go back to bad habits and routines. 

It was a good show, with many important lessons. Somehow it found me, and I will try to learn from this.

Till then

Zeke

Wednesday, April 04, 2018

Thinking about what interests me

Hi, 

I was just reading about people who had started up their own businesses and are now really successful. It reminded me that I should also keep exploring new things and maybe I might one day also be an entrepreneur and have a solid business going that can help me achieve the life I want to lead.

Working for the past year opened my eyes on what the typical office life is. You mingle with your colleagues, maybe you will get a real nice bunch you enjoy working with. You deal with upper and middle management and you try your best to get the work done in a timely manner of the highest quality? This goes on from Monday to Friday and after you get the weekend to recharge and look forward to the next holiday or paycheck. For me this might be also with two times a day training sessions of 2-3 hours each for my competitive kayaking. And it repeats.

What I want would be to have a decent living, to be healthy and to be in control of my time. How can that be? It seems impossible but there must be ways to do this. I will have to think about things.

Coaching is one thing I would like to do someday and I think it will allow me the freedom of choice with my time. I however would also like to try other things.

Technology interests me and also environmental issues. 
I.e. How can we make our lives better with tech? How can we reduce pollution in a sustainable way?

Maybe I will be able to think of an interesting solution and that will be my entrepreneurial idea. 

Till then I will keep on brainstorming.