Learn, Guide and inspire.

'Come to the edge', he said.
They said, 'We are afraid.'
'Come to the edge', he said.
They came,
He pushed them...
and they flew.
- Guillaume Apollinaire


Everyone needs to be guided in some way. This is where the role of a teacher/mentor comes into play. He/She is a person who leads and inspires. Csm once told us, "treat your men well, but that doesn't mean welfare...it means top class training. Your men are a reflection of yourself."

Jori takes so much pride as a officer and wants to work with recruits. Jun yi spot checks his men in camp. Yanbo trains his recruits with a smile. I could never really understand why, but i think i'm starting to see.

To lead and inspire.
To make them better than you ever can be...

OCTs and specs trainees having a hard life now.
piah abit and inspire.

That familiar feeling...of leaving home.

Back to training school tomorrow. I'm having the usual sinking feeling just before booking in. To tell you the truth...the only thing I've truely learnt from the army is how important my home is. The privilege of taking my sweet time to do things, showering in peace without other people walking around...having my own bed to sleep on and eating whenever and whatever i want. Tomorrow I'll will be moving to mowbray camp, which is far from home but at least it's still on the mainland.

Just to clarify, I'm mp...military police, not police force or am i going to police ocs. At most coporal 1st class? It's my choice and i've thought it through long and hard...and explaining it will take forever.

The boots have been kiwi-ed, the field pack is full and the duffel bag is heavy.
I'm ready. Throw whatever you have at me.

:/

And now i'm a policeman....

Life just got more interesting...

Should be fun?

N3204

Thanks for the well wishes! I kind of forgot about today actually :/

No more sad stories.

Poping in 3 days time and it's almost time to move on to the next phase of ns. From Rec to Pte tay, I think it's a big achievement! Especially when i've survived the toughest company in bmt, NINJA company. Then it's gonna be about 10 days + of block leave and preparing for postings to unit. Praying hard the guards do not open up now and mp won't come and disturb me and if that happens, things should be smooth sailing.

The feeling of not being able to strive for the best really sucks. I've given up a chance at OCS/sispec to pursue a dream and sometimes i really wonder if at the end of the day i won't turn back and regret not getting my 1 bar or 3 stripes. I'll also be thrown into a different circle of people. People who maybe never studied past secondary school, people who aren't given the chance to be a commander. Things will be quite different from here on.

I really wonder if i will one day regret this decision...

Ok sad stories aside, bmt is finally feeling really finished. Everything has been completed and all we need to do now is parade ourselves before our loved ones on tuesday in SBO and smart 4 before our 10days free time to recover. Looking back, there's some very memorable moments. The 24km march in the rain that started at 2pm and ended at 1030pm is one of them. My boots were totally soaked in sweat and rain water and my feet totally wrinkled up when i finally got my feet out of the boot. Games day was another one. I joined the tug of war team with marcus,kaiyang, julius and shaun. It's the first time in a long time I actually felt part of something and we tugged and pulled our way to third place in front of the school. It was tough but we put up a hell of a fight. Finally sitest with the crazy fast marches. Ninja marched 4km in 23mins or so...it was like running with 7kg stuck on you for 6km...crazy..

Apart from that I know i've been complaining alot ,but yah sometimes i don't mean what i say and i'm starting to get irritated with myself so i'm trying to stop...Other than that...Jori and sam are gonna commission on the 15th Mar. I'm gonna go watch them do their officers' parade. I hear it's really pro and it's one i won't ever have...so...just gonna go watch them be awarded for their hardwork and soak up the atmosphere.

Made a visit to the uk fair too. I'm quite happy to find out i can apply for ucl and warwick and cambridge. My dad wants me to try for cambridge and it's hard to tell him how difficult it is to get in...but i think i'll at least try. In the words of 2nd LTA Teo,

"At least try, if not you'll never know".

See how, sometimes when god doesn't want to give you something, there's a reason for it.

9 more days to POP

Down the last stretch now, 9 more days to passing out parade which is probably my only parade in army. Lots of drills coming up and games day to train for + one more bcct to attend in the mud and camo before I can leave that island. I'll get my mum to come because its the only parade I have anyhow. I polished my parade boots until its super shiny already...must act zai abit what...

:P

Also saw andrea and bill's pictures in some ninja photo album in the annex room. Some recruit ninja kel put it from ninja'04. Bill is freaking boyboy-like in that photo!

Anyway, just got out of camp this morning and booking in back later at 5pm...so only about 8hrs out this week. Quite sian lah... the whole section kenna confined because my buddy anyhow shoot blanks, but nevermind lah buddy...
Missed the Nat team timetrial, founder's day and that talk with zason i wanted to have. Ryan talked with him already and the federation is still reluctant to do anything whatsoever to at least try to help. It's frustrating.

Heck them, if there's a will there's a way.