time.

One week of hell. One more to go. Finished 7 out of 13 papers and it's draining every drop of energy from me. Fighting on 3 fronts is starting to get too much for me now. Feeling sickly but no choice, still have to train my heart out too.

It's a real crazy month. 2 weeks of mid year, 1 week to train in peace, school nats 1 week, NCC the week after, leaving for czech the week after that. Haven't move boats to bedok, haven't paddle in bedok at all, National stadium closing ceremony to attend, still need to study, still have to arrange the proposal to mr see to train early in the morning then make my way to school slightly later, get some wamers. I'm gonna die.

I was looking forward to this period since the start of the year. I've planned everything to peak now, I've used my entire holidays to get faster. But now that everything's about to end, I wish it didn't pass so fast. There's so much to do still, just so much...

It's also the confirm THE LAST year rowing in ACS(I) colours. No more sudden last minute extensions to my stay, no more new course that stretches till uni and god knows what lies ahead. NO MORE no more exams. No more drawing cartoons during lessons. This is really it.

Feels like i'm living a dream. It's still lacking something though. I don't want to wake up.

Time flies. I've to fly with it.

it's come and gone...

Tomorrow morning will mark then end of a very long speed cycle. Clocked in some 40 sessions over almost 30 days which translates to about 320km which include many minutes of sprints and 2 timetrials. After this will be yet another rest cycle before the final push. I really trained the holidays away this time, and with mid terms looming around the corner, I foresee tough times.

My sis's friends also came over today and watching them have their fun is quite entertaining. She is kinda into those Cosplay things and the 3 of them were dressed in all them japanese anime costumes and attempting to gel their hair in all sorts of weird positions which failed pretty miserably. hahaha. Interesting. Should use gatsby moving rubber :D

It's fun I guess every once in awhile to pretend being someone we're not. It's important though that we know who we are and who we are comfortable as. Everyone is special and unique in our own way and I think that's something we should try to hold on to.

It's also been raining quite alot and I found this watermark that formed outside the Macritchie upper shed toilets after training one evening. For those who can't make out what it is(which i assume is nobody), it's a heart shape. The rain must've washed mud,rust and all sorts of other crap particles and by some miracle it formed this. This is for all you lovebirds(you people know who you are) hahaha.

I'll find the right time.hopefully...

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Love is patient and kind;

love does not envy or boast;

it is not arrogant or rude.

It does not insist on its own way;

it is not irritable or resentful;

it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth.

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Jamiroquai - Virtual Insanity -

Funky...

Went to check out the long sleeve attire from tyr for junior world champs but it turns out it's too colourful and probably too thin. nemind...try someother brand some other day...

Driving

Taking a short break before i get down to some serious Organic chem and then start dragging my feet for 2nd training at 5.

Jori gave us a shock today :P Someone can finally drive ah!!!! Congrats on passing :D He drove us to J8 to eat and then to Novena to drop off. Quite zai and i'm looking forward to the many rides home after training you owe me since SICC way back in March.

mwaahahahaha.

Gotta start learning too...
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I should do something special this week,
Yet i can't bring myself to it.
Wrong time, wrong place.

timetrial 1k

Timetrial again today and coach made us clear all the lanes when we had the trial. He's really starting to get serious about the timings now. It's kinda unfair for the other schools but if we don't hit the timings we'll get screwed badly! Thanks RJ and ACJC for cooperating with us today. Bear with us for awhile yah?

Things seem to be going well recently and hopefully I can keep up this pace all the way till July 23. It'll be the closest I ever come to high performance racing internationally as a junior.Coach keeps saying that competiting with them european juniors is impossible. They're just out of my league because of the usage of performance enhancing drugs from early ages. He calls this the "serious work". Fighting against someone with stuff is just extremely difficult. Such people don't ever get caught too because of bribing. It paints a real sad picture of sports.

Well, just gotta keep working hard. The results will take care of itself. It's the same with exams
:)

gnah

Timetrial went well even though coach changed the time of the timetrial, sorry abt that...It was near perfect conditions except for the heavy rain which happened during the 15mins warm up. We're inching closer!

Today was rushing around after training and yah...same thing as the other sunday, I cmi lah. Nevermind, try and try again. Sooner or later i might actually do something. Waiting for the bus, God actually answered a prayer I made(and real quick too).

Amazing.

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Every second
being around
is precious
to
me.

time trial

Having a full distance timetrial early tomorrow morning before the schools and colleges come down. Wonder if Lucas and I can better our previous times. That elusive 4 and 50 barrier is still standing. Hope we can break it. Pray for us :)

road less taken

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

- Robert Frost

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Of all the poems I've read this is the only one that really really sticks with me. Thank goodness it's part of individual commentary as well. Revise and slack at the same time:)

Fork Sportka Ad

evil but funny HAHA!

Gatsby Hair Commercial

Moving rubber ad makes me remember this.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Gotta Love gatsby advertisements so freaking funny :)

hmmm.

Most busy week is finally coming to an end. It's been funny, pain, tiring, stressful and at times just plain old silent and uneventful. Started the week pretty well after surviving the second dog attack by my own dog :( Now i'm paranoid of all dogs. The other day walking down the slope after training some nj girl dropped her bag on the floor and it made some sound that sounded like a growl and i just froze in my steps! My heart skipped a beat lah! hahaha.

Wednesday was NS med day. Reported at CMPB at 930 and the whole thing ended about 3pm. Went with guitarman Yi!! We started all the tests together but somehow due to inefficiency a gap started to build up and he ended up waiting real long for me to finish my final tests. The hearing test is one of the funniest moments there. Some tone will be played into either ear and we're supposed to rase our hand to show we hear it (right for right ear etc) So Yi went in first and started raising his hands like idiot and i start laughing like retard. So yeah the two of us like tourist hahahah. Then was the chest X ray and can hear the guy inside shouting "Hold your breath". For some reason we started laughing also and then the whole room of topless guys just start laughing for no reason. Then all the random tests blood test,ECG, almost everything under the sun. Was looking at my PES grading and everything A and i was thinking to myself finished ready sure get those uber hard jobs in NS. In the end MO decided I was PES B because of asthma. I thought after all those tests can go home ready and they come slam us with some 2hr IQ test. One was reaction time where we press button and the moment everyone reach that test the room becomes full of clicking noises from the keyboard. Cant finish all the math stuff lah...to dependent on calculator mwahahaha. Quite interesting yet i wish i used my time better. Jori and Sam were trying to teach me combat tactics while we took a walk in the jungle just now HAHAHA. 3 of us formation,army songs and all that nonsense :) Sure is quiet without them around...

Training also becoming siao again. The rest week is coming to a close now and i'm super tired still. The 2 times daily is causing aches, cuts and abrasions everywhere and the weather isn't helping very much. Wake up at 6 and fall asleep near 12 and the whole cycle just repeats itself over and over. I'm sure most people won't like that. The only time i really interact with people is lunch and after trainings. In between trainings is also extremely hard to mug because i'll just fall asleep most of the time and by the time i wake up it's 2nd training time. In the end I hope it's worth the effort.

I realised my strength is long gone and I'm real drained after nearly 2 years of massive training+ school. Now i'm living on God's strength and on the prayers of the people around me. God will reveal his plans to me slowly, and i'm willing to wait till then.

Till then the best is yet to be.