i'm sorry, i'm feeling bitter at the moment.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't what I am.
I wish I'm like any other person in class,
One who didn't set my mind on something,
One who worries about getting the best grades,
Going to the best universities in the world,
Going to OCS,
Getting that freaking sword.
And not be stuck in a sport that nobody really gives a shit about.

Someone who worries about music and performances,
About how pretty the girls in class are.
About the bitching and backstabbing,
About all the trendy fashion.
Somebody who can just bum around with people
and go on many many holidays.
Somebody who can spend more time with his family.
And start contributing to the income.

Someone who didn't commit.
And i won't be in this hole i dug myself into.
And am always stuck in this dilenma..