2nd week of break

Hey,

Since the selection, I've tried to keep my mind busy with other things. And with work, it was just right that the exhibition came a few weeks after which kept me busy. I just put my mind into that so that I could keep myself occupied and to keep the morale up. I guess it worked. 

The past few weeks seemed to go by pretty fast and I enjoyed myself. But with the end of the exhibition things started to slow down again and the extra time seems to be catching up along with the thought about what happens next?

Do I try to get another contract? Do I go head on with training without the possibility of every making it to the games. Currently it's a blur and it irritates me alittle.

It however seems to me that the only little chance I have is to be away for a long time. It makes it impossible to keep working though I've started to enjoy it alittle and got a nice bunch that I get along with. I can't imagine doing all that again next year from scratch. Not sure how to proceed from here actually.

The other thing that irritates me is the constant talk about money. I don't understand my aversion to being in conversations about it but i just have a general distaste for hearing about how much people are making and how it would be great to be part of this or that job.

Maybe I'm just not meant to live in the city.

Hope things sort itself out soon.